All of a sudden, everyone will only hear the sound of silence

The Last Reflection

This post meant a lot. The last post. My high school days will soon end. The moments of being a rule breaker and the endless pressure I feel will soon end. I both feel happy and sad, and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be. Happiness is there because sooner or later my dream would be on my own hands. Soon, I will be doing the things I love. I would be painting and counting money. J But sacrifices would always be there, I will do what I love but I will be missing friends I have known so much, friends I love.

High school is said to be the best part of your school life. Maybe because we are going through adolescence and we are starting to see the world beyond our toys. We are starting to see the real aspects of life. We get more responsibilities and we adjust to it. A lot of troubles come past us during high school. Some troubles re made by wrong decisions and some are just something we wanted to do. We skip class, we’ve been on the principal’s office, we share answers during exams, and we made jokes out of everything, we share awful moments together, we break rules and we also climb the walls. A lot of these things are considered to be bad or unpleasant but we still did it. I also find true friends during this period; A friend that is always there for me through my ups and the downs. Friends that I can get together with and and be happy with. And that was the best part of high school. And I know those things wouldn't end just because the school days ended. Our friendship will always be there and our journey will still be continued.

My Dream, My future

Dreams. The great things we believe to depart from fantasies when time comes. It is a wish that will soon be granted if true faith and hard work will fuse. Dreaming is always free. Every floating mind is fancying good things that will happen to them in the future. What would they look like, what would be their jobs, what would be their houses, would they become a billionaire, and who would they be.

I always dream. Not only during night time but more on daytime. Daydreaming is the best thing that was ever invented. My normal day composes of 70% daydreaming and the 30% would be the things mind will do. It is fun imagining the faces you know today being an astronaut, a famous pilot and everything. And what would be their expression if they would see you so different than the one they know before; they see you as a better person. Dreams are my inspiration that kept me going. I know life is so hard and frustrating and I fell so many times and broke my own pride. But dreams are always there to help me stand up and still keep my head high. A dream doesn't end a story, it makes you write more and continue living. If you want something that can give you genuine happiness, go, grab the chance. And if challenges oppose your dreams, don’t run away, face it. And it can make a future.

I want a future that could be lived happily and pleasing, through good and bad times. I would like my future to have an endless happiness and doing the things I love. I would be painting, doing work, travelling around the world and even to count money. And that future will only be possible if I dream and strive for it. Just believe.

Change: It starts with me

Change. The only thing that is constant in this world. C-H-A-N-G-E, it spells like that. Six letter word, it is not that long, but it makes the spherical world an entity. The being you know before is not the one you know today. Change is constant, it is true. You grow, you think better, you become older, you CHANGE.

I am not perfect. I have a lot of flaws. I can’t even do my duties responsibly and make a good masterpiece. It is like I do my task so lately because I am addicted to the way it feels when pressure creeps on me. I’m growing, physically and mentally, socially and emotionally even spiritually, I know. There are more responsibility, more choices, more decisions, more mistakes and more learning.  And I can’t get rid of that. The world changes in every millisecond, in just a blink of an eye. But I know I can be better. I know I can do well for myself, not for impression, not for the people around me but for myself. I know that I can’t be perfect but I can dispose my defect and live with it. I can change and be enhanced. I can be a lot better. And maybe, just maybe, I can make the world be better and make a difference. 

An Ilocano Celebration

Kannawidan; a celebration done annually to celebrate Ilocano culture particularly in Ilocos Sur. Activities are done every year to convey Ilocano’s talents and traditions. During these days, technology dominates the whole place but through this Kannawidan, it makes children and even adults to know their culture, to know more about our ancestor’s life. This event even features the popular products of every town. Everyone is welcome in this celebration where other people; not just Ilocanos are going to enjoy such annual event. This event is also significant to the local provincial government for the province’s economy and tourism. The tradition and culture of the place will attract tourist all over the world discovering the beauty of Ilocos Sur. There are also contests held to make everyone see the capability of Ilocanos; the thing that they can only do. There are also awarding ceremonies to recognize the Ilocanos that gave honors to our province; from students to popular personalities. The one who made differences. The one that gave hope to their fellowmen.

                Kannawidan is giving people the chance to see the whole of Ilocos Sur and the whole of Ilocanos. The one that cannot be seen on photographs. You can also see the genuine desires of every pounding heart of Ilocos Sur. And that is to inspire.

New Year, New Me

Last year was a great year. A lot of things happened; either you became happy or depressed. There are things that made you regret. Things that are not quite worth to remember. Things you have done because of wrong decisions and immaturity, disobedience and selfishness. All of these made the structure of you, the image you made people see on you. These are your flaws. All of us make mistakes; either you intend to do it or not. But still, there’s time for change.

I have done a lot of things last year. It was done because of the randomness of thoughts and ideas floating around my mind. Different stuffs, good and bad. Well for the good stuff, it was great for me doing such things. But for the bad, I regret doing it, but at least I learned something. I lack in confidence, I can’t even make my chin up, or walking with it on the streets. I don’t even being so lazy is another problem. I can’t or I must say “I don’t” even finish it before the deadline, I just wait for the time to run so fast doing nothing and let myself be pressured and rush things up. Another thing is, I am stupid. This is true, my mind soar around bitchy ideas. These things made me laugh but never became happy. I used to smile a lot, but only few of them are real and genuine. Since it’s a new year, many people made resolutions on what they would be changing about themselves but I believe resolutions only live for weeks. Things that can make you change are the people around you; your peer groups, intimate friends, family, and those things that influence you. It depends on you to choose who you will become. Who will influence you. Me, I will change for good. I wouldn’t change my friends. Also I can’t change my family. I will only change myself. I know who I am and I know what would I dispose and what would I keep. My flaws will be changed and I will beome better. Because there’s another year and there’s the improved “me.”

Reflection

Ugh... Finally it's over. I don't know what should I really feel about letting the Third Grading period go. I mean, there's a part of me that feels happy because I successfully done it without being insane at this moment. And another part of me feels sad because we're slowly walking away from high school and really we're nearing the end of the road.

This grading period, I learned a lot. Things that are actually new to me. Well, you can't say that you learned something when you actually knew it before. That's not learning, it's actually digging deeper unto things. And Yeah, I know I learned something because I don't know those stuff before. And also My knowledge had gone deeper. We didn't actually had a formal discussions about our lessons and stuff and maybe ma'am was a great believer of the quote "We learn from our experiences" She let us go to our stations, do works there and the boom!! A new knowledge. HTML and stuff. Those were a great help. I always tried them at home and do something stupid about it.  Placing different weird things, applying unknown code of the background color etc. There are always new achievements and new things that made yo regret. But yet, learning something is different.

It was such a delight to learn something new. To learn something bigger than you expected it to be. To get a better knowledge. To build a bigger you.